The Wall Collapses

You create a wall around you
Till someone special comes along
Then your stuck what to do
Will they break your heart to

Do you take a chance
Or hide as you do
For a bit of romance
The wall creaks Boo

Creak turns to crack
Do you stay
Or turn your back
And run away

You take the chance
Let that special lass
In your life to dance
Never again to pass

She enters your life
Makes it so complete
Never any strife
Grinning wide as the street

The wall is gone
Your heart is over flowing
Perhaps for so long
You start singing

The wall is still there
For others you know
She is now inside there
Where you both show

Now she will stay
Never to leave
Your never feel like a stray
She helps you breathe

Your soul mate
Your very life
Arriving very late
maybe she will be your ****

Freak

You build your wall so high
Never let anybody in
It reaches the Sky
But could fit in the bin

You are that Freak
The one no one likes
They stare at your beak
Just wanting to bite

What they want to do
Without a doubt
Is just get at you
Cause they think your a lout

Some say nice stuff
Only because they think
As they call your bluff
Thinking your the missing link

All that you know
Is the outlook is bleak
You want to just go
Cause you know
YOUR A FREAK

today

Why is it when your fill up with tears there's no one to give you a hug. When they flow and you don't know why or really care why you never get noticed! You wonder why your still allowed to breathe! Cause you have no purpose, no job in life just sit and fester!

Reaper

Once you were told that you were inviting the grim reaper into your life. It was a silly thing to have been said at the time but damn I wish he'd hurry up and get here. Your life is full of crap, no one really wants to see or hear from you, including your kids. Why use all this energy and oxygen for such a useless. pointless life? Let the Reaper man come and do the world a huge favour. Prevent wasted Oxygen and send him here!

Why

Do people speak to you Why does anyone care Your life is like a Loo Filled with crap and despair If you had the nerve You'd end it all today why do you serve All those that ask You should be shunned By the world Never spoken to Just left to die One day your learn That no one really cares Your a useless Fat auld man That should never Have been born But left to die At Birth

OUTSIDER

When your left alone aged 9 then you start your life as an outsider. Everyone else has parents a mum and a dad but not you. You learn young to hide how your feeling, don't let anyone in that special close space. That's how you get hurt! They know when they get in and just wait to drop you from a great height to achieve the maximum amount of pain. So why let anyone in better keeping that space and staying where you can't get hurt. You grow up in school where after every break your asked what did you do with your mummy and daddy during the holidays. You are the OUTSIDER in the group. Even when you start, you feel like no one is interested in what you have to say. They seem to have new/different conversations when you arrive and when you leave. Then you start making phone calls and well can people see its you on the phone? You ask yourself cause no one seems to answer to your calls. You begin to wonder will life always be like this. You end up getting married but even then, you daren't let them all the way in, thats how you get hurt. You know the second you do they'll be like everyone else and run away. All this turns you into a guy who doubts everything about himself. It makes you question your very existence. You begin to wonder why people talk to you at all. Why do you matter to anyone because you don't matter to yourself. Its just get through another day. I mean when you family give up on you what else can you expect from anyone else!!!!!!!!! Your just one of those people no one likes! That will remain an outsider for all of their life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Best day ever planned for!

You reach the ripe old age of being in your 50's. You've been married had kids and now have grandkids. You have a group of friends who you support every chance you get! Then one day it falls apart. You don't know what happened, you blinked and missed it. So what do you do? You plan for the day that matters to you. You plan for the day it will all end in the way you want it to! No one else will know, they can work out the hassle and BS after the event. You remember the past all those attempts to end things your way. All those thinking they were helping and not realising they were just extending this hell on earth for you. In your 50 plus years how many have been spent in tears? Probably over half of them. Why extend it any more? So how do you plan to make it stop? You must be miles from anyone stop them interfering. You must use a method that can't be undone. In a place you won't be stopped. You start by taking strange drives and walks alone away up in the hills and woods. No one thinks anything of it, your family just think its dad/grandad being mad again. Actually they rarely chat with you these days. To wrapped up in other things. You find the perfect spot surrounded by trees and at the edge of a cliff, not very hight but high enough. The nearest road is prob about 1 1/2 mls. away and that's a silly wee back road most folk never ever use. You need to prepare properly though. You must have it all prepared for your special day. There is the rope to buy, it must be capable of holding your great bulk without breaking. It must be able to take the strain of that sudden jolt to. A climbing rope would be best. You need to practice that knot, so it will be good enough and tighten properly. There is the date to consider as well, not near anyone's birthday or any festival/holiday thing you wouldn't want to ruin that for the future. The rope is bought and in place under a large old rock for safe keeping. The tree has been tested to make sure it will support your weight. All that's needed now is 2 things. 1) You need to stop having nights like last night where you talk yourself out of it. 2) You need to just do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Friends or 1 friend to be precise do wonder why your staying up half the night. You can't tell them your planning your best day! They use their mind/imagination to create their own choices for what your doing and end up being cross with you. Wait till your day the will be so shocked and wonder what happened to him? Actually truth be told it was that person the one who noticed you were on-line half the night that stopped the eventual fulfilment of your special day last night. At least they noticed even if they did think you were up to no good. How can you tell them what you were really doing without causing them more pain?